Tak tahu kenapa, tapi sejak dua menjak ni asyik menangis saja bila ingat dekat kau. Tak tahu, aku yang salah ke, kau yang salah ke. Yang pasti buat semua benda tak kena. Ada saja benda yang boleh jadikan gaduh. Haruslah, aku tak nak berpisah. Tak pernah aku fikir sampai macam itu. Aku tak tahu pun apa yang akan jadi andai kata aku dan kau pergi ikut haluan masing-masing. Mungkin aku tak keruan? Menyesal? Tak tahu nak luah dekat siapa, nak salahkan siapa dalam hal ini. Kena pandai berbincang sesama sendiri. Aku tak pandai nak buat ayat puitis macam kau. Cukuplah sekadar luahkan perasaan aku dekat sini.
Dear My Live #1
You do knew how much I love you. I find it hard to believe that after all these years, you still don’t understand me. You know, I’ve tried my best to make you happy, I changed to a better person in order to cherish you, brighten your day and loving you from the moment I open my eyes until I close it. All I need from you are your full attention and undying love. I’m willing to give my all if it is needed to prove how much you mean to me. Please, I’m sorry if it is to much to give. I might be selfish. But, its all about you. It’s not as if I have another person to turn to. All I have is you.
Well, like everyone else, I do have a diary. In fact, lot of diaries. Each diary written about a single boyfriend. I mean I have a lot of ex’s back then, during high school. So everytime I changed boyfriend I’ll start writing on a new one. This month, our house is currently on renovation. So basically, all of the stuffs were removed from the house. As I am at my college now, I am kind of afraid that my mother found out about it. Of course I didn’t wrote anything strange. Its just, I am afraid you know, with my horrible fantasies and stories of my ex’s. It might create a world war between me and my mother. God, please help me.